Though by the Peaceful Shores, I roam
I know thou art with me
Have you ever been there? Loneliness is a forsaken feeling like you're in this hole and there is no way out and no one understands your troubles. I was in a constant roar with depression. It kept me down and I just wallowed in pity; but I heard of a God who could take all of that away. I didn't want to believe it, neither did I care to call on Him. I felt like I was in no shape or form to even think about God. I was sinking deep in sin and knew not the goodness of God. So there I was, still stuck within the chains of my morbid situation. Quite comfortable in my miserable state. I became stagnant just following along in life's journey. I would see others smiling, laughing and, I'll admit; I'd do that sometimes too - but there was always that burdensome feeling that would come back. I then heard someone mention the name of 'JESUS' - they didn't say much, just that 'He's an on time God and a God of love'. I knew I needed that at that moment. I then got to looking around at my surroundings and I noticed that there were things that I had that would help in my situation. I saw the blessings that, I somehow took for granted and I recognized the beauty and usefulness in them. I realized that God was revealing that to me all along. I envisioned Him standing there saying 'Come to me all those who labor'. Yes, at that moment, I accepted Him into my heart. The moment I accepted Him into my heart, I realized that I was just too busy by focusing on my problems. I now know, as God said in His word 'seek ye first the Kingdom of Heaven' and with that message alone; I felt reassured. I put a little pep in my step knowing that the peaceful shores that I once walked, can't pull me down with tears any more !
My mother would fuss at me - but I didn't listen. I would argue with my mother, I would yell at her, slam the door and go about my business, I thought nothing of her feelings. As a matter of fact, didn't really care about anyone's feelings. Yeah, I was selling, dealing the whole nine yards - and never got caught.
I was living the dream - bringing in lot of stuff and getting the due credit for it too. Let's not leave out the arrogance. People would try and tell me the right way to go. I shunned the thought of having to answer to anyone. I was my own man.
But it took that one early morning, when someone pulled a knife out on me. We struggled for the overpower. He punched me - I then him until we found ourselves on the ground. You see, there was no one around at that time (typically in that location there would be children playing, parents walking around, crossing guards on the lookout and cops on the beat) but that was not the case here at 3:00 am. Find out more about my story ...
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I was hanging out on the streets ...til early morning... and then it happened !